Jeg er virkelig spirituel - helt seriøst...

Det er helt vildt synes jeg. Jo mere jeg læser om andre som læser/praktiserer Et Kursus i Mirakler jo mere bliver jeg i tvivl om jeg overhoved et kommet bare et lille skridt videre.
Og nu har jeg taget denne beslutning: Ikke så meget fortælle om mine fremskridt (er der nogle? - dem er jeg aligevel ikke i stand til at dømme om selv overhovedet) - men om de besværligheder der kan være i forbindelse med det at praktisere det jeg læser i Kurset.
Har lige købt et par små bøger af Kenneth Wapnick - "Parents and Children- your most difficult Classroom". Det var uhyre interessant og lærerig læsning.
Det bedste af alt var at jeg ikke fik et eneste gran dårlig samvittighed over ikke at have været en god nok mor eller barn af mine forældre.
Enkelt og greit fortæller han om hvordan disse nære relationer "fungerer" og hva jeg skal være på vakt overfor. Lar jeg meg fange og irritere av mit barns opsætsighed eller uvilje til f.eks. at rydde op - - ja så viser jeg bare klart og tydeligt at jeg har givet min kraft og magt fra mig!
Husk hele tiden på at DET KUN ER MIG SELV SOM KAN BESTEMME OVER MINE TANKER!!
Hvor har jeg dog mange gange hoppet med på den galej - mange gange om dagen i årevis...
I dag ser jeg sådan her på det: Jeg gjorde så godt jeg kunne - og så er den potte ude! Færdig med det - Tak Helligånd.
Jeg var heller ikke så specielt sød ved min mor - altid.. Men jeg gjorde så godt jeg kunne. Basta.
Fortiden er over. Det er slut med at være et offer for min "forferdelige barndom" - for det var den til tider - det har jeg altid syntes.
Mine foreldre gjorde så godt de kunne - selv som barn vælger man sine tanker bevisst eller ubevisst (mest ubevisst selvfølgelig).

Nu skal jeg se å få meg et liv...

Ja - og så har jeg besluttet meg for å inføre en slagt skandinavisk språk her - jeg er ikke så god til å skrive dansk - så nå vil jeg ikke engang prøve på å få det til at se korrekt ut - bare skrive det som faller mig naturligt - og så må det være godt. Det er herligt befriende.

Vet godt der findes stavekorrektur her - men nå blir det mer meg synes jeg - på denne måte med alle stavefeil osv.

I spend my day in total peace - or do I?

What a wonderful morning.
 I feel so peaceful - like most mornings. I feel light - I feel free.I went for a walk along the beach with my dog Fiffi - like most mornings.I am a good Course student - this is working!! Nothing can disturb my peace!My walk is a couple of kilometers long - the view here along the beaches of Tisvildeleje is fantastic!
All of a sudden I just "froze".I saw a body - lying twisted among the rocks a few meters from the water. Blue pants and a red jacket - the head twisted in an unnatural way. Already I had the whole story made up in my mind, a man who had fallen overboard from a ship...My hearts was pumping like mad - I was so scared and my first thought was to turn my back on the body - and escape.But then I remembered - I choose my own thoughts - only my thoughts frightens me...So I went on. I must admit - peace did not come - just like that...As I came closer - I had second thoughts - was it really a body?

I went on - and when I came real close I discovered - it was only some fabric from a sail - what I thought was the head of the body - turned out to be a stone...There I was - observing my mind. Stories made up in my mind in less than a second -scared me stiff - for what reason?None. None whatsoever.This is how quickly my peace could turn to fear. Death frightens me still. Makes me all white inside.But it also tells me - nothing that I see - is what it REALLY is.I am most grateful for this experience. Only a few minutes earlier I thought nothing could disturb my peace.It showed me there is still much forgiveness work to be done...It showed me how easy it is to fool myself into believing my forgiveness work is done.

A couple of days later a body was found on the beach. ..?

Er jeg en god Kursus i Mirakler studerende?

Det vil jeg gerne være. Jeg vil faktisk gerne være den aller bedste. Og hvordan bliver jeg det? Eller er det nødvendig for mig at være bedst?Kurset siger jo – jeg er perfekt – måske bliver jeg en god Kursus-studerende ved først og fremmest at slippe ideen om at jeg absolut skal være den bedste.Men hvordan gør jeg så? Jeg kan ikke altid forlige mig med tanken om at jeg ikke skal sige fra når jeg føler mig angrebet, men hvis jeg gør det er jeg i mit ego. Det giver intet at prøve på at pynte på mit ego. Det giver intet at lade som om jeg ikke føler mig angrebet, og lægge følelserne ned i rygsækken – til alt det andet. Som Kursus studerende har jeg som mål altid at være i fred, men dette er jo ikke en fortsættelse af den flinkeskole jeg altid har gået i.På den anden side er jeg jo ikke i fred hvis jeg vælger egoet. Opgaven synes næsten umulig.Eller er den?Jeg har ledt efter svaret – og fundet noget jeg kan bruge her: http://www.facimoutreach.org/qa/indextoquestions.htm (Foundation for A Course in Miracles spørgsmål og svar side).Først og fremmest skal jeg se på min bekymring om at jeg er i mit ego. En vigtig del af tilgivelsesprocessen er at lære IKKE at frygte mit ego eller skamme mig over at jeg har angrebet for fuld udblæsning. Jeg prøver at lære at egoet i virkeligheden ikke er andet end ”en lille tosset ide” jeg glemte at grine ad. Så når jeg dømmer mig selv for at være i egoet, så bekræfter jeg jo kun at det er virkeligt og ikke kun ”en lille tosset ide”. Det ville være meget bedre hvis jeg kunne være ærlig angående mit angreb og sige: ”Jeg angreb og det føltes herligt!” . Sådan. Det var ”forkert” kun i den betydning at angreb aldrig vil give mig fred i sindet og aldrig vil føre mig hjem til Gud. Men det gør det ikke til en synd. Det viser mig bare hvilken omkostning det har at følge egoet. Når jeg ikke længere føler at omkostningen ved angreb er det værd, vil jeg bede om hjælp til at tackle tingene på en anden måde.Jeg kan ikke måle min fremgang ved at se på om jeg stadig angriber eller har angrebstanker, men snarere, med tiden, hvor hurtigt jeg husker ikke at retfærdiggøre mine angreb. Altid når jeg identificerer mig med egoet, er jeg fordømmende, føler frygt osv. for egoet forandrer sig aldrig. Men den tid jeg vælger at tilbringe med egoet – den ændres.For det andet er processen i Kurset ikke sådan at det tvinger mig til at vælge mellem tilgivelse eller at ”lægge følelserne i rygsækken”. Nej, tværtimod hjælpes jeg til at lære HVORFOR jeg angriber – hvor mine følelser kommer fra.Tidlig i arbejdsbogen (lektion 5) lærer vi at ”jeg aldrig er ude af mig selv af den grund jeg tror”. Når jeg praktiserer lektionerne indebærer det 1) at se åbent og ærligt på negative tanker og følelser, og 2) erkende at årsagen er min beslutning om at afvise kærligheden og dernæst projicere ansvaret og 3) at bede om hjælp til at ændre denne beslutning.Mine følelser af vrede, had, jalousi, bekymring osv. er mit pensum. Disse følelser indikerer hvilken lærer jeg har valgt og er faktisk den eneste målestok som viser mit sinds beslutning. Derfor er det så vigtig at være opmærksom på hvad jeg føler og oplever. Ellers har vor lærer, Jesus jo ikke noget at arbejde med! Han dømmer mig aldrig når jeg angriber. Han beder kun om at jeg lærer at erkende egoets dynamik som ligger bagved, sådan at Han kan hjælpe mig med at lave den korrektion som er nødvendig.

I need not worry about time...

I do not have to worry about time.


I do not have to worry about whether I am "going to make it" in this life or not. That will only delay me...


Today I will finally relax - and not worry.


I give the day to Spirit

I need do nothing...

This is one of the most wonderful things I have ever come across.

I need do nothing..

I will rest, and I will let Him lead the way.

I do not know what anything is for - and I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do.

It does not matter whether or not I agree with my fellow "A Course in Miracles" students - I only have to save myself - by realizing - I know nothing...



From the Urtext: (as it was orginally written down by  the scribe of A Course in Miracles)

(October 5, 1975)

Be comforted. You are not asked to do anything. There is a time when to step back is all that is asked of you. It is a time of rest and not of strain; a time of peace and not a time of conflict.That time is almost here. It seems fearful because it is not under your control. But think a minute; stop and think honestly about what your control has done; what it has brought to you.

You have been caught in a trap from which you never could escape. Conflict, guilt and fear have come with you and never left your side. Each one of you has done this differently, yet each has come to the same place; the same impasse. And now it seems to each of you that there is no escape. For it is true that you cannot escape alone. Your stories seem to differ, for they do take different forms.Yet their one content makes you brothers. Dwell not upon the differences or you are lost. It is in recognizing the common content; the common need, that you are saved!

The mess that is your lives is an illusion. What can the form of dreams resolve? There is no answer to a question not yet asked, for it would not be recognized. Ask only this: Will I fulfill the function given me? What else is there to ask? Why must I know the form in which the answer comes to me? God answers, “Yes” and it is done. No more than this is meaningful to you.

It is not He Who would withhold the future and leave you fearful. You could not accept His “yes”in forms you would not understand. Things still in time unfold as is appointed them, and many things remain undone as yet. Plans based upon intangibles cannot be fully shown to you. And what has not as yet occurred must BE intangible.This phase of learning has a single lesson for all the forms your problems seem to take. To God all things are possible, but you must ask His answer only of Himself.

Perhaps you think you do, but be you sure that if you did you would be quiet now and wholly undismayed by anything. Do not attempt to guess His Will for you. DO NOT ASSUME THAT YOU ARE RIGHT BECAUSE AN ANSWER SEEMS TO COME FROM HIM. BE SURE YOU ASK, AND THEN BE STILL AND LET HIM SPEAK. There is no problem He cannot resolve, for it is never He Who keeps apart some questions to be solved by someone else. You cannot share the world with Him and make half of it His while half belongs to you. Truth makes no compromise. To keep apart a little is to keep all separate. Your life, complete and whole, belongs to God or none of it is His. There is no thought in all the world that seems more terrible.

Yet it is only when this thought appears in perfect clarity that there is hope in peace and safety for the mind so long kept dark and twisted to avoid the light. This IS the light. Step back and do not dwell upon the forms that seem to keep you bound. You WILL fulfill your function. And will have whatever you will need. God does not fail. But lay no limits on what you would give to Him to be resolved. For He can not offer a thousand answers when but one is all there is. Accept this one of Him, and not one question will remain to ask.

DO NOT FORGET IF YOU ATTEMPT TO SOLVE A PROBLEM, YOU HAVE JUDGED IT FOR YOURSELF AND SO YOU HAVE BETRAYED YOUR PROPER ROLE. Grandeur, which comes from God, establishes that judgment is impossible for you. But grandiosity insists you judge, and bring to this all problems that you have. And what is the result? Look carefully upon your life and let it speak for you.

Is this frail breath and deep uncertainty your choice for you? Or would you rather rest in surety, certain you would not fail in your request to have all problems happily resolved? Do not mistake the fine disguises you can use to cover judgment. It appears as charity, as mercy and as love; as pity, understanding and as care. And yet you know it is not what it seems because the problem still remains unsolved, and comes to haunt your mind in evil dreams.

What have you kept from God that you would hide behind your judgment? What have you concealed beneath the cloak of kindness and concern? Use no one for your needs, for that is “sin,” and you will pay the penalty in guilt. Remember you need nothing, but you have an endless store of loving gifts to give. But teach this lesson only to yourself.

YOUR BROTHER WILL NOT LEARN IT FROM YOUR WORDS OR FROM THE JUDGMENTS YOU HAVE LAID ON HIM. YOU NEED NOT EVEN SPEAK A WORD TO HIM. YOU CANNOT ASK, “WHAT SHALL I SAY TO HIM?” AND HEAR GOD’S ANSWER. RATHER ASK INSTEAD, “HELP ME TO SEE THIS BROTHER THROUGH THE EYES OF TRUTH AND NOT OF JUDGMENT,” AND THE HELP OF GOD AND ALL HIS ANGELS WILL RESPOND.

For only here we rest. We cast away our little judgments and our petty words; our tiny problems and our false concerns.We have attempted to be master of our destiny and thought that peace lay there.Freedom and judgment IS impossible. But by your side is One Who knows the way.Step back for Him and let Him lead you to the rest and silence of the Word of God.

Velkommen!

Ja, jeg ved ikke helt hvad jeg skal bruge dette her til - men det er jo altid sjovt at finde på noget nyt!!